Yea, my activity has dwindled dramatically.

Right now, I'm not going to make promises that I'll come back strong and start submitting things again; honestly, I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

However, for those who still remember me, or might check back now and then, let me fill you in on what's been going on in my life. Maybe you'll understand, maybe you won't... What you may or may not understand, that's for you to decide.


I've become quite sad that I'm no longer artistically active. I still have a good eye for art, regardless of how good it is; in fact, I keep up with art in many areas of my world and give "kudos" or "this could be better" now and then. But, I still sit on my chair of, "it's already been done, what good could my work do?" It's sad, but that's what's crippled me...
I counter it every time I think it, yet it's never been effect for me to pick up my art supplies again and be creative. Plus, I don't have the things I want...
Sad that I want more than I have, but Photoshop would be an amazing thing for me to have... simple as that.


I also have a dream to go into the Air Force. I want to be a fighter pilot.
Not my personality? I know, it's not, but I want to fly.
There's no room in the Air Force for artists, so I've dropped my art classes in school for math and science for a better chance to get into the Academy. A slim hope at the Academy, but I'm still working my ass off for it.
These last few months, I've rethought if that's really what I want.. Yes, I want to go the speed of sound, if not faster. It's in me for the rush of anything I can get my hands on. Could you imagine the G-forces and the adrenaline rush? Roller coasters haven't been enough for the last few year, why not go extreme and fly in a fighter jet?

However, I couldn't fly over a target and let bombs go... Regardless of my love for jets, I don't think I could do it... It's a dream, but a dream I'm no longer sure I want to live.

So, I'm still taking my crazy amount of hard classes, but I have two creative, artistic classes, and I'm hoping I'll get some goodies for you all

I'm also with a new boyfriend. Lots of drama in the past caused by boys, but this one is different. No use going into it; I know where my heart stands. If you want to know, trust me, I'm a lady, I'll talk your eyes out about him; but I won't here.

With that said, my dreams are shifting with that as well. I have also wanted to start my own business, a restaurant to be exact. Maybe I will go for my, "I want to be an author and own my own business", or maybe I'll go for, "Yes Sir/Ma'am" and jets.



We'll see. I've wanted to be artistic, but I've faded (obviously). That's where I am right now. Fighting myself, and trying to juggle all my crazy things I have going on. I never touched on that, did I?

School Schedule:
A: Drawing/ creative computing (;D)
B: Spanish
C: History
D: Chemistry

This is what that schedule means: three core classes, one elective per quarter; or, call it what you will. That's an INSANE schedule for a charter school and college prep... That's every day for an hour and a half, homework for two of those classes every night.
Last semester I did that... I was exhausted (almost got a 4.0 though ^^!)

There's also work at Target... not as kind as my 3:00 - 5:45 every day, week days only... That left plenty of time for homework. Now I could work until 9:45... it's a dreadful thought, but I got myself into this.

Plus, Leader's Challenge, a whole different experience and school pretty much in itself. In other words, think of it as a Leadership training school... It deals with politics, community service, and so many other things I'm not sure of and can't name.


And, there's also CAP (Civil Air Patrol). Some may know what it is, others may not. Think of it as a civilian branch of the Air Force. Aerospace Education, Emergencies Services, and everything else we do... that's Tuesdays, also until 9:00. I might have to go from work straight there and put my homework off until late at night.



AND, where is there room for my personal life?... This is it. My busy schedule. HAHA! And I almost threw sports in there... I knew better. Lol. I flat out knew better. They needed me for softball... I said no thank you '>.>


My boyfriend lives in NYC, and I in Denver, Colorado... that's 2 hour difference, and we can only talk after 9, and he is a sleepy one and likes to get his sleep... I would like to talk to him.
Plus Video games will have to be put on hold, also.



that's my life. That's why you rarely see me around anymore. I want to come back, I'd love to be around again, but I'm unable to promise anymore. I'd also love to promise, but I might just get myself into a messy situation.


Maybe you'll start to see me around again, with these lovely classes that allow me to be creative again... my little haven in a mess of science, history, and another language to be learned...
Next semester I get Pre-calc ;D
Maybe you won't start to see me more, maybe I'll just not have time, and give into my hopeless rut and get lost in it.

I don't know.
But, I still have some hope I may return


So, there's your update.
Regardless of anything, I will always stop by every now and then like I do now.